…along with a buzzfeed post about depression:
"I sometimes get jealous of people who don’t have depression. A few years back, I finally got to the point where I can tell if I’m entering a depressive episode. I can now hold on to a spark of rationality amid the crush of irrational thoughts (13 & 14 on this list). While it doesn’t stop the depression, I know now that it will pass…eventually. I don’t beat myself up. I just let it happen, ride it out, and come out the other side alive, albeit exhausted.
My rock bottom was my 3rd year of college. So many of my closest friends today were eyewitness to my behavior and self destruction. And they continue to love me anyway. I’m extremely lucky to have them. I literally owe them my life.
So, if you know someone who is dealing with this awful illness, be patient. Even if we push you away, don’t go. We may say horrible and hurtful things, for which we will be eternally sorry. Know that it is not the true us talking. If we are self-aware (like I have become), then: stand by - technical difficulties. Your regularly scheduled friend will be back right after this message from the brain monster.
If you are still reading this, know that I love you. You’re one of the reasons I’m still here today. Your prize for being my friend is me. All of me. No refunds, no returns. Congratulations.”
Then I got a flat tire, it’s pouring, and I am supposed to head to the beach this evening.
Its days like today that I am eternally thankful for corgis. They’re little, non-frightening clowns with ridiculous nubs and derpy smiles. You can’t feel too sad when you have corgis.
Of course, I am always thankful for Rikku. My wonderful, constant companion. My therapy dog (I’m her #1 patient.). My snuggle butt.
2014 was one of those years that started out like “THIS IS GOING TO BE GREAT!!!” and its halfway through and we have a war going on, a deadly disease has been spread, countless shootings have happened, racism is alive, more people have been leaving living things inside of hot cars, and robin williams is fucking dead
I laugh to keep from crying.